Fed Up!

I'm so damn tired of this stupid disease. I just want to be normal.

I grilled three weekends ago. It made me sick. I grilled two weekends ago. It made me sick. Last week I figured out why. Many charcoal manufacturers use wheat as binding and filler in charcoal. I was literally burning wheat, inhaling it and eating the wheat ash on my food. And of course I buy the cheap store brand match light charcoal which is more likely to use larger amounts of filler and binder. When I bought the charcoal the pure wood charcoal and kingsford were about the same price and the store brand was significantly cheaper. So not knowing any better I bought the cheapest charcoal. I'm struggling so hard right now just to keep my financial head above water, so of course I bought the cheapest brand. Between the rising cost of gas and food and the growing list of food allergies I can't just eating anything anymore. I can't buy the cheapest anything anymore because invariablly whatever it is, be it shampoo or charcoal, it will have wheat or barley or oats in it.

Then there's the question of whether or not the BBQ is now too contaminated to continue to use. I cleaned it out good this last weekend and grilled again. It made me sick again. I guess the answer is yes, it's too contaminated to continue to use. So if I ever want to grill again I'm going to have to get a brand new gas grill. Yeah. I tried pricing those. Nothing under $120. Where the hell am I gonna get $120? Guess I'm not grilling for awhile. Gee thanks. Can't go to a restaurant or order take out, now I can't grill. Guess I'm damned lucky there's still anything I can eat.

I can't afford this stupid Disease anymore!!!I am just so tired of this. I'm tired of paying more for things. I'm tired of not being able to eat in restaurants or ordering take out or delivery. I'm tired of being accidentally glutened. I'm tired of calling and emailing before I can buy or eat something because some stupid manufacturer doesn't have the good graces to spell out what "Natural Flavorings" means. I just want to be normal. I want to do what normal people do. I want to eat pizza and hamburgers like a normal human being.

But I've finally learned one important lesson. Always keep Haagen Dazs ice cream in the house. Again, yeah I'd buy a cheaper brand but they put some bizzare shit in ice cream, including of course barley and wheat. Haagan Daza, bless them has total of five normal safe ingredients listed on their ice cream. No additives, no preservatives, just cream milk coccoa sugar and eggs. If only I could live on Haagen Dazs chocolate ice cream and ruffles potato chips I'd be set. At the very least Haagen Dazs ice cream is comforting. I'll settle for that right now this minute.